Have you ever felt like you never measured up? Like no matter what you do, it’ll never be enough? Yep. I have, and it sucks.
I feel like that in my art class every Thursday night. And there isn’t a thing I can do about. I can’t change how she feels about me or treats me. All I can do is make sure that I am doing everything I can to the best of my abilities. I also feel like this when it comes to the Navy stuff – I really wanna do this but I can’t convince myself to start running or doing push-ups. I lay there and realize that I will never get it done while I’m in bed but then I start doing something else instead. Same thing with schoolwork. I’m stuck in a rut and no one cares enough to say anything.